"Being depressed will only slow down my progress." got this off from my classmate's msn nick. yea, so true. before my mind was running wild thinking of all those !@#%^ stuffs, doing my EOM was chicken feet. After it started running wild, EOM became a project that seemed impossible to complete. until now, i'm still stuck halfway thats why im here. Argh somebody help divert my attention please. So annoying.

This post is for STEPHANIE YEO ZHI TING only (:

You once said before you dont want our friendship to change or turn sour because of him. Frankly, our friendship already changed at the time you decide to listen to him to stop talking and go to sleep immediately. The change already begun. But, our friendship will never turn sour (: Definitely not because of some guy if really happens, i will burn your house i swear and pluck out coco's fur. Don't cry when he bully you. Telling me won't work either, I will end up helping you, it may work at times, it may not. Its sth between you two, so you 2 should settle it (: You HAVE to stand up for yourself when he is being unreasonable. Although i y'knw, yea but if your mom speaks ill of him, i still will help save his reputation one so dont worry.

When you have other problems, telling me becomes your habit. But dont forget you have another person now, so do tell him some of your problems also. i am just a text/phonecall away[this privillege does NOT apply to everybody, sorry]. Do buck up for your PW! We can do it even though you have an asshole for you teacher (: Start to enjoy life, Live life to the fullest, you can CHOOSE to be sad or happy one, it's all within your means and depends on how you look at it. Although i am not facing up to reality but i am happy. If being realistic makes me unhappy then i choose to be unrealistic (: Choose properly (: idk, if this post encouraged you in any way, but this is what i want to tell you

SHES BACK FROM AUSTRALIA AGAIN!!! (:

Baby #2

They are rather fascinated with the fact that i take pictures while walking -.- who set the rule that we have to stand still while taking photos?Baby #1

Baby #336

Alright, so my morning was disturbed with phone calls and texts messages, do you know how much i wanted to just throw the phone out of the window, kill the person who invented beeps and ringtones plus vibrations? Suckers. So, due to the fact that i was still texting someone in the wee hours of 3 plus, i slept late. which means, i simply had NO ENERGY to literally climb out of bed. i used my last bar of energy in answering phonecalls and pressing the stupid keypads plus the send button. As a result, noboy went to fetch Baby 2 from the airport xD sorry baby!

Continued to sleep on till about 10.45 until i got woken by Baby 1's morning call. it's not exactly the best morning call in the world. but still in the midst of sleeping, i still had to wake up once in a while to pick up calls and reply texts -.- set off to hlm to meet them, you know, those people up there?yea they are the people that i went to meet. i mean, seriously, their pictures are there for a reason right? haha moving on, got a tobleron for Baby2 cos i felt so bad for not fetching her. ate nonsense for breakfast then we headed to vivocity (: met Qing on the train, haha super qiao can! the 3 of them was grossed out with me and QING cos she's my baby~ (:

what did we do arh? i only remember that besides Baby1 and Baby336 bought shorts from Mango , Baby2 bought tons of rubbish from Diva, them having lunch at long john's while me and Baby1 ate fries whilst staring at the handsome boy outside at the playground, the rest i cannot remember already (: BTW, the handsome boy's smile is so mesmerising that it can even take my attention away from Baby1 while she is talking xD so, Baby1 went to paragon to meet her family, Baby336 went to Cherry Hill to look for her "bomb shelter" because i think she's gonna experience a nuclear bomb explosion soon. So me and Baby2 headed to cathay picture house to catch Ilove you, man. Super funny show with LOTS OF F WORD xD and there were gays in that show! I LOVE THEM!!!!!!!!!! :D Oh and before the show, i was talking to Joyce's malaysia friend? that was like so random? and he said he wants to get to know me better. haha no thanks (:

after the show then i realised jeremy yeow and ebenezer was in the same theatre as us, then saw eugene, the friedrich. all soccer guys HAHA (: shopped awhile, indulged in ice cream, headed home (: our wonderful stayover project has been rescheduled (: thats all for today (: pictures in fb (: JOYCE SEE, YOU BETTER UPLOAD THE PHOTOS ALSO HOR.

Joyce is trying to be a ghost (:

Ghost In The Making (:

Joyce scared she kena H1N1 she intends to wear that on the aeroplane when she come's back to Singapore on Tuesday (:

hahahaha Skype is like damn cute and cool! hahaha she is funny manzxzxzxz miss her (: went to disturb ann and conference with her (: alright gonna continue playing (: today was like super fun! a brief summary of what happenned later (: I waited at kovan macs for breakfast with Friend A but she didn't show up, so i had no choice but to crash friend B's house. Played games then we went to meet friend C, wasted 2hrs looking at her do her hair at the salon, then me and friend B went back to kovan macs to study, but all i did was sit there trying to beat her high score for GLOBAL BLOXX and i did it (: Friend A felt super bad for what happened in the morning so she came to look for us for dinner (: and FRIEND D also showed up. see? today so many things happened and came to look or i went to look for (: haha. now idk what am i doing tmrw. hais...

this stupid S make me go to her house early in the morning just to do sth. so we were slacking away i went to read the horoscope again and hahaha really very whoa whoa whoa. so what we did was really bimbo pls. we did our nails, not the damn pro kind but still can pass yea (: webcammed with cheryl and it was rather hilarious. she's damn stupid pls. hahaha her facilitator is teaching incass she still can webcam with me, super daring. hahaha its quite funny to see a teacher walking behind her and she have to act as though she's listening xD never seen her so focused and set her eyes on the teacher in secondary school one. she wont even bother to act to listen can. she will just put her head on the table and next 5 mins, shes in lala land already. yeah she kept quiet the entire time while her teacher was teaching that i understand. then when break started, she still dont want to talk! she tell me say she in class, but i dont see why she cannot talk when everybody in class is talking loudly and i obviously can hear her. but she just die also dw to talk only after idk how long, then she realise that she can talk. hahaha because i was saying that her classmates were talking damn loudly and she realise that her laptop has mic also -.- stupid right. alright so 2 hours later she had to start lessons again so we just chat normally. so, she cut her hair but it took me ahwile to see the difference :p but still nice la shes just overreacting...

ate brunch and jonathan is like the first GUY besides my father to cook for me xD hahaha but he cook eggs for me la haha his sis is jealous xD fb-ed awhile and all then left her house (: went to hougang mall and the trip there was horrible. but nvm, we act as strangers but we are not. dont ever forget that okay (: just rmb the song that i want to sing to you when you miss me (: nth will change between us. just maybe the fact that we cant talk as oftern and free and crazy as usual. alright yknw what, im gonna decide for my clique. i think im gonna meet them on saturday. set im gonna mass text them tmrw. i better not see ppl idw to see.

went to hougang macs to meet Qing (: helped her with her physics (: didnt really help her much though but only a few qns and of course, we talked abt mj again (: camwhored alittle then i played with her hp game, GLOBAL BLOX (: super nice and fun game!! i needa beat her high score (: went to run some errands, and headed over to timezone AGAIN (: gonna save abt $10 to play that House Of The Dead (: we took damn long to find the stupid mayonnaise xD bought a lollipop cos i realise i havent ate it in ages and some hairclips before heading home(:

now that my brother is away, wtv my mom ask me to do i also do. she ask me to mop floor i also mop. Time to grow sensible and not just play all the time. yea thats what im gonna do. im gonna lessen the quarrels with my mom even more, and do wtv she ask me to unless it is unreasonable stuff (: alright everyone, im tired now and i cant wait for the suki sushi outing charine tmr!! it's been so long since i last saw her (:

it has ben a long day for me today. sorry ann for being so GL to you, thanks J for talking to me. (: i know yall still love me even though im so GL today. as for T, study hard then.

well as you can see, im really bored to the max and yet my friends asked me out at wrong timings... steph asked me out for dinner in the evening with her mom but i turned down because i thought my mother was gonna come home early to cook for my eldest bro because tmrw he's gonna go NS, which is like HALLELUJAH TO GOD BE THE GLORY AMEN (: my prayers have been answered, and now this time has finally arrived (: tmrw at 8 in the morning my brother would set off on a journey, a step towards manhood, bidding goodbye to childish immature acts and stupid childish computer games -.- so in the end, my mom is gonna come back late -.- hate her, foiled my plans.

next, Qing just phoned me to ask me out to play mahjong! what a good opportunity can! we can rarely sit down and play mahjong okay! its like only 3-4 times have we done so. i think me and qing gonna take mc for the day after the wedding or sth like that so that we can party all night till morning and play mahjong (: so, out of boredom, i went to look at these and here's what i feel about it...

"The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love someone else."

hmm, not really if you really really try and go through it (:

"The couple that fights the most is the one most in love... it shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring."
A phrase that i'm gonna offer it up to S & A (: Cherish each other well.

"Don't let someone become your everything, because when they're gone you have nothing!"
My gosh, why didn't I come across this earlier??

"I get the best feeling in the world when you say hi or even smile at me because I know, even if its just for a second, that I've crossed your mind."
uh huh (:

Alright let's just stop here for now (:

Today was as boring as watching a political channel. All i did was sit in front of the computer, and just watch series and movies. this is like the worst day of my entire june holiday so far. i wonder if me steph and jermaine have some curse or what. is either all 3 of us go out but all go different places or all 3 of us stay at home and rot. so i ended up watching movie after movie at home. i even watched spider lillies by rainie yang the lesbian movie, yea those that hate lesbians, please dont watch the show because it is erm... hahaha yeah just dont (:

and now, im sitting here typing this whole chunk of rubbish! tskk. i just invited steph over to my cousin's party on saturday and she was like damn happy (: hahaha yay gonna go shopping for present one of these days! time really flies yea? we've just stepped into the third week of holidays, which means choir practice gonna get intense, have to go back to school for YOG rehearsal, college day, once term starts, gonna get REALLY hectic. NOW I KNOW WHY THEY MADE US DO OUR MID YRS BEFORE JUNE HOLS! hahah yeah im slow in reaction (:

i think there isnt gonna be a choir outing in the end because i cant organise it by myself. i have lost track of my holiday homework. i really need to get back on track man. i dont need my parents to say i also know i did not touch my subjects at all since i came back from St j. powerhouse. oh i saw Lizard there that night (: she was the bouncer HAHA. her job was to refuse ppl's entry for reentering powerhouse withouht the tag i was looking out for her the entire night after we got stucked at the Open Gallery i just thought she looked hot but i didnt realise she was Lizard, at least not till today :p

Hey 4B2 Clique'08!!! let's go out this friday one annot? to make up to ruth and delicia for missing their birthdays in may (: 4B1 Clique'08 we NEED to go out when J comes back (:

8 more days till J is back in S'pore (: and July is arriving...haiis.

life still goes on, the earth goes on spinning. dont blame me if i decide to erase you from my memory space. you are not making any effort, then why should i. you piss me off really badly now, dont ever let me see you again. yeah maybe i needed you in the past, but now i dont and definitely not in the future. all the bullshit that you said in the past that talks about the future, will never come true. i really wanna kill you right now. yea la yea la im jealous, can?

these few days have been great (: went AMK hub with Qing 2 days ago (: caught hannah montana the movie which was superb! lunched/ dined at Macs (: we talked ALOT, great catching up (: actually right, i was catching up with her life only (: mine just summarise with one sentence can already, i met a new guy again. haha simple right? gave her tutorial on how to be more zhuai not to be so soft and get bullied by that stupid ass. went to meet steph at dhoby, finally my dear qing cannot resist temptation went to look for that supid ass (: i had to teach her how to "open" the door even (: hahahaha she's just so lovable! me and qing even spent 20mins at the hello kitty sanrio shop to choose her stupid stickers xD she even collects them. crazy right? aiya well, there are such people in the world (: got rid of her to go look for the stupid ass because he got fever.

me and steph then went crazy at daiso!! hahaha super fun. i keep taking stuff, she keeps throwing them back onto the shelve :D haha i went nuts because i wtv shit also take xD then we shop at daiso for damn long and we finally paid up (: hahaha i had to carry all those stuff back. sianzxzxzx. at least i earned a packet of sweets (:

went to K's house in the morning cos we were suppose to watch drag me to hell with S and A. but change of plans, we went to watch seperately instead (: watched with K this Jap series which was super cute and interesting! i like that show. then he went to play warcraft so i go watch my fav CSI lor (: finally after much persuading he decided to go and bathe! went to tamp to catch the movie (: great effects, makes you jump off your seat, gross thats all i can say (: went to get frolicks :D headed back to compass point for dinner then we roamed around and i went home (: tired ttm! watched tv and i decided to use com. it was my worse night ever. firstly, mom took my iphone once she heard that i want to sell her current phone, give her my iphone and get E71. PROBLEM IS, i havent even get my new phone and is not 100% i can get she go exchange with me already so i got "demoted" to using a lousy phone. next was msn. that was one hell of a night man. K shocked me with a qn that i almost died thinking of an ans for him. then it was ---. that convo was like super pissed and grrrr. then another convo was with ET my junior haha we were highing tgt about my ECs in sr xD yea i know she's random. lastly was the convo with huiling. we were talking abt my past and her current, which was a nice convo. so ytd, i finally know whats the meaning of happy, angry, sad, excited happening all at the same time! its like when you alt + tab, each convo has a different feeling. whoa terrible man. i almost thought im gonna have a schizophrenic mental disorder or sth. almost drove me nuts.

met qing today last min at compass point (: studied a little then we pampered ourselves with oreo cheesecake and brownie with ice cream plus cookies and cream ice blended (: yummy :D then we talked about her mj, all my different "boats", and many others (: then we went to timezone! whoa this is the first time i played HOUSE OF THE DEAD 4 for so long! we played until chapter 3 even (: hahaha actually is the guy see we pretty so he decided to give us 6 extra credits xD because at first the guns were faulty so they came over to fix it then it was okay so we started playing. then after that we were like playing and they somehow added the credits for us but they were trying to remove the key so they were there for quite long. then there was this boy, he keep teaching me how to play, then he took the gun from me and help me kill hahaha he's super cute and funny la! somehow the first time somebody help me play and yet i didnt get angry cos normally if got ppl want to help me play i will get angry cos i wanna play myself (: then we played one round of daytona then we went off (: hahaha i was teaching her how to be nice to guys and bla bla bla, now i became her romance consultant! hahaha she's damn cute la. she and mj are like ice and wood blocks -.- both boring people! tsk tsk. chat with steph and all, most prolly going sentosa tmr (: haiis im still hesitating. tsk tsk. i wanna get a tan thats why. alright thats all for now. my life has been exciting recently xD

yes im here to update (:
[5th May]
met steph to do her fringe extensions so she doesnt have bangs anym, become side parting (: went to city hall to get balloons for ann, had mos and trained back. saw a few ppl here and there along the way (: stopped by SR to get my skinnies from Jonathan that asshole, drag for so long now then return to me. went to Weedy's house to get a lift to the condo (: waseh her dog is freaking heavy man! somemore slide here slide there in the cage, even harder for me to carry! went to the bbq pit, what welcomed me was Ann's scream. after 1234564789 days, her screams are still most significant and symbolises her presence (: at that time, me and weedy damn sure we didnt go to the wrong place :D what was most irritating there was the stupid cat and tiffany. she this time damn sucker, one big PSK. last min pulled out from the party. but its alright, we are forever not fated to meet one. everytime when im asked to meet, i dont go, T appear. i appear, T cannot make it. we are 2 parallel lines HAHA, gross. anyw, thanks to ann, i get to see her and weedy and like paddy and bla bla bla (: thanks Ann (:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANN!:D

Ytd was a blast, saw Jiaying, tess and a girl you would have never imagined to see her there. laughed like anything because of this group's retardness. left at about 4 and we were damn heng because we took the first cab so S, A and Fabb had to wait super long before their cab came xD they let us have the first one because Jeremy was the 'head'. HEE (: the cab fare was like...but didnt have to pay a thing because that's the guys job :D went to 205 to eat breakfast, reached there at about 4.30...haha we ate first and we were damn sure by the time they finish eating, 2nd grp havent even arrive and we were right. and jeremy really went high and nuts after that xD he ordered kopi, teh o and hot milk plus hundred plus. not to drink individually but mixed all tgt, plus ice and we played spin the chopstick. whoever kena, whoever drink xD walao haha A was like the suayest because he had to drink for S, himself, and the empty hole beside him xD wah i freaking swear it was the WORSE DRINK EVER! it looks like brown precipitate and tastes like crap! by the time we finally finished the drink, everybody was laughing like crazy and almost everyone puked! stupid jeremy still can act tough pls. A puked first then jeremy xD then we said jokes, laughed like hell for the next 2 hours or so, then we all left. took the earliest LRT home. hahaha Jeremy forced me and K to take one big round of the Lrt with him before he was willing to go home and before he left still go and make a scene in the LRT! walao damn throw face man xD K told me that like that hang out with him, sooner or later sure go hospital xD WAHAHAHA their clique is super crazy, even more retarded and crazier than me so you guys can roughly imagine already :) alright tired already, gonna crash again (: oh, quite a pity i didnt get to see red graph and white tee turned out to be in their clique as well, or maybe its not the same person. haha whatever.

met charine and xin ying for lunch today (: i tell you first these guys can be like gross partners for life or sth. they are like talking about nails being chipped off, might as well use pliers to pull it out and charine explaining the fun of flicking the half nail left, with all the blood oozing out. walao gross man. almost gave up eating lunch... went back to school for choir and charine went for netball (: choir was alright, now its like full of space because only 22 people turned up for practice today, yay (: and the bass is officially extinct, zero, non-existent. HAHA! so we sang for 3 hours not bad not bad. there were breaks amongst us but is like take turns one so, not that bad luh. overall, choir was alright (: not as bad as i initially thought it would be. dearest jermaine waited for me for more than half an hour after her bowling training just to go home with me (: how nice of her :D but she took the liberty of waiting for me to watch the soccer boys. hahah now that the J2s are gone, the attraction to watch soccer has decreased by 60% for me (: all eyes set on volleyball instead (: oh and B got a shock when he saw me today (: because i wore contacts -.- he's quite lame alright. went to the night market with jermaine after that (: she bought the magic ice pop and i bought some pop snacks (: gonna go there again soon if she is gonna go also (: jermaine, im just a call away (: the e-learning package is pissing me off. so badly that i have decided to go school early tmrw to do it instead. what happened to me arh? i rather sacrifice my beauty sleep just to complete my assignments xD i have changed! and so did she.

you know what? idk how does your mind work. you care, but you dont show it. you'd rather quarrel with me over some shit and not say sorry. why can't you just show it for once that you actually do care? take that cool mask off la. i saw you take it off before. you do care. just show it. i like your sarcasm but not this time. all it takes is just this once to make me hate everything about you. don't make me go through it again. it sucks terribly.

woohoots life is G-R-E-A-T! (: other than school and choir, life is great (: me and the innovian went to club ytd (: shiokzxzxzxzxz we were like damn freaking hot because she act smart which caused us to withstand the heat for extra 20 mins and i had to carry her stuff even. she sucks for having such a small bag! get a cool and nice bag like mine! its not guyish! we were like rather pampered, went to the study, then we waited for her dad to come to get the club card, then we went to eat lunch, lazed around, re-did my physics quiz online then we headed over to the gym :D event of the day (: but we only managed to run for like 15 mins and we have to rush off to her school because of PW. bathed, then we went to parkway to get drinks and i got my ice cream :D wth please we sat the damn bus for like more thatn 1 hour just to get to woodlands! poor girl had to run to school. shall not blog about this tragic thing that happened. skip all the way till 8 plus, FINALLY we went to tampines 1 to get our contacts (: ate dinner, talked about SUPER gross stuff. worse dinner of my life man. headed home and slept like a pig (: