Just realised that i havent been updating about my life! Hehe and there has been quite alot of events that happened although it seemed like ages ago :) stuffs like the Lantern Festival, night star gazing with Jermsy Wermsy, Nike Human Race, trip to Ang Siang Hill with daniel, charine, hannan and dx, me and my black cat (hehehe not everyone knows who he is :D) , the lame qn inccident only jermaine knows, my confessions, Commendation Day and some other stuffs that i can't really rmb :) quite happening recently i must say :)

Went shopping with daniel and we brought his sisters out to town also :) shopped for clothes for his sister and i picked out one at Rockstar :) she liked it so we bought that for her! I have really good taste and i shall proudly announce it to you guys. His youngest sister (Pri 1) is really cute, tells me stories and told me an interesting fact abt dan :) the 2nd one (Pri 6) may be indifferent but at least she whispers to me which dress she likes rather than telling dan, so she is also cute in a way too :) oh and i met shiqi, vivien, amanda chen, meiee and wanlin :) quite a weird moment la but, haha okay forget it :)

Went for a jog/walk with jermaine today! Walked quite a distance and we took the LRT back to Rivervale Mall to shop at Daiso :) really enjoyed today with her :D oh the girls and i are gonna go IKEA soon for meatballs and a whole round of shopping and walking around! Twin and I will be heading down the DIY shop sometime soon so that we can do sth to my tanktop! Cant wait to see her soon! Will upload the photos of the things that happened soon! :D

Although i retained, but my life still goes on. Unlike some ppl. I really hate you but i cant do anyt about it. I told you so many times before but you never listen do you? Since you don't then i shall not bother wasting my saliva or time lecturing you. You are fucking hopeless and i'm washing my hands off you already.

Tomorrow is the Graduation Day for the J2s. And we are asked to perform. Some stupid "motivation" song so obviously we have to sing it with hope right? How the hell am i suppose to sing it in the way the teachers want when i hope for them NOT to leave college? STILL HAVE TO SMILE SOMEMORE. what nonsense is that seriously. lucky for HL, she's gonna pon. I wanna pon too. Cant stand the fact that Wind is leaving. Sucks. And as usual, i get caught for my uniform again by the teacher. If you think that my uniform is not good enough then dont put me at the first row. i am willing to hide at the back, hide at backstage and sing even better. Damn. I know Miss Tan is nice but seriously, she should check out the way she speaks to people. I tend to get a little defiant when i talk to her. But when Mrs Oh ask me to do sth i will just go along with it because she tells me in a nice manner. I just dont wanna sing tmr thats why im giving lots of excuses now. Tonight sucks.

And you know what? i cant even stand breathing the same air as my idol now when he is around. that sucks. let's just see who wins in this cold war. maybe no one will win because we might not even talk to each other ever again. maybe thats the only way out for us. but whatever it is, reconcilation period doesnt seem near yet.

THANKS TO JERMSY WERMSY, I HAD TO GOTO SCHOOL WITH NO ALLOWANCE TODAY AND SHE TOO, HAD NO "CREDITS" WITH HER. TWO POOR KIDS HEADING TO SCHOOL TOGETHER IS DEFINITELY NOT SOMETHING I WOULD LOOK FORWARD TO. BUT BARBIE SAVED MY LIFE BY LENDING ME FIRST (: I LOVE BIMBO BARBIE! (:

I WILL MAKE SURE I SLIP THE MONEY IN MY WALLET NEXT TIME BEFORE I LEAVE HOUSE NO MATTER HOW RUSHED FOR TIME I AM. IDIOT JERMSY WERMSY. Gillian totally walked past us in the morning because apparently, the music she was listening to was practically BOOMING into her ears until she couldnt even hear us (:

Studying drives Charine mad (:

Howl At the Moon

Howl At the Moon

Outing with 1S32 at Botanic Gardens and Dempsey Hill

Jacks' place Dinner at Compass with S

So, S treat me to Jack's Place like days ago, and we gave them feedback, here's what we wrote :D
it was freaking hilarious and we ran out of the place just before they read it xD I'm sorry we used -'s no. but it was all a prank, no hard feelings. I will kill myself if he can even recognize it was his no. that we wrote. the house no. steph wrote hill got no reception. couldnt stop laughing at that one and the email add xD

Everyone, meet SS515. she is the new soloist after SS501

Stayed at SS515's house for like rather long, and it was fun yet boring (: i was like a total alacker ever since i stayed at her house. all we do is sleep, watch tv, eat, schooling (that only applied to me), pw-ing, watched movies, ate Ben & jerrys (also only me), clubbing, shopping and sleeping most of the time. Last but not least, ENJOYING THE AIR-CON (: Ever since i stayed at her house enjoying the air con for 24hours, i aspire tobe like Ponyo. It lives in a bublble and it is dam cooling. i wana be like PONYO and travel around in an air conditioned bubble (: Powerhouse was still better compared to Howl At The Moon though. But im sure Baby and A enjoyed themselves that night, and so did her 2 weird friends.

we were broke after enjoying so many nights, so on the last day, we decided to whip ourselves a meal and also for johnathan to thank him for cooking dinner for us on friday night :D

Dont you think it looks good?! i chose the food from the fridge! hahaha but SS515 did the cooking :p

we went in and out of the aircon room countless times because it was simply too hot in the kitchen, and we thought of installing an aircon unit in the kitchen, but its kinda gross, sadly their hall has no fan, so we were sort of suffering from the heat. Vaccuumed the floor for her after that, since i freeloaded at her house for SUCH A LONG TIME. but come to think of it, i entertained myself most of the time, because she is always sleeping! wanted to make high-class ribena ice blend for her, but the stupid me, added too much water into 2 cups of ice so there was no ice blend but just water :p im sorry la, i am really a kitchen idiot. waited from 6-8.30pm for the ice cubes to freeze but they just wouldnt. then ice-cream man came so we searched ALL over the house just for 2 bucks [BTW, thats how broke we were xD] but the ice cream wasnt good :( drank iced high-class ribena, it was heavenly. home-ed after that. really didnt wanna go home because i was so damm lazy to and the air con was such a tempt for me to just sleep right away.

Oh i attended a steamboat party on sat night while SS515 went for pw to celebrate shiqi's birthday (: damm fun and it has been some time since i catched up with them (: wanted to go midnight cyclingwith SS515 after that but we were just simply too lazy to travel all the way to ECP and secondly, yours truly doesnt know how to cycle :)

Holy shit, i just came across the lama drawing that i drew with steph like 1 or 2 years ago during physics lessons for sure (: hahaha because he is in the picture xD

googled the pic of a lama because my friend was interested in how it actually looks like and i found a blog that is mainly about lamas. HAHAHA seriously lame ttm man whoever that creator was. Cannot take it so i decided to share it with you people out there :D

http://lamalovers.wordpress.com/2008/09/

It's the things we walk away from, the things we feel like that cost the most.

Took this random quiz about how i lie and i must say, it is very true.


You lie with how you act. You are a 'glass half full' kind of person, or at least you pretend to be. You act like the person people need. You are quiet and logical in group that needs some morals. You are upbeat and positive in a group that needs some excitement. You are kind and understanding when people need a shoulder to cry on. Basically, you lie about who you are. Your kind heart is easily manipulated by people who are just looking to use you, but you have a tendency to bring out the best in people. You are a wonderfully positive person and everyone loves to be around you. You live for your ever growing circle of friends.

You lie because you do not think about yourself. You are happy if everyone else is happy, and sometimes have a problem with thinking for yourself. Only your truest friends have seen you when your tolerance has run out, and your best friends are the ones who calm you down and don't take advantage of this. Even if you have had a bad day, you put a smile on for the people who need a positive person around. However, you let your guard down easily for a smooth talker or overly friendly stranger. Your kind heart is open to everyone, which makes you a target for people with bad intentions. Keep your friends close and let them help you pick out the bad people, because they are your weakness. It's true that people could use someone like you, but remember to think about yourself from time to time so you don't explode from holding it all in. You don't want to lose the friends who understand you the best.

cool isn't it?

I AM OFFICIALLY BORED TO THE MAX.

There's nothing much for me to do! Most of my friends are like having their promos, I can't watch L Word because i haven't gotten the hard disk drive yet, and i have watched 2 movies twice this week and there is gonna be another one on Friday watching phobia with dan and little shit, i am really sick of the cinemas. i have been sitting in front of the laptop for god knows how long, jus tstaring at the screen watching movies non-stop, finally i am doing sth healthy tmr. Running with Qing then picking SS515 after her econs paper then we go and study (: i know my promos over already so i also i go and study for what, but it definitely beats staring at the com. PLEASE MY DEAR FRIENDS, PLEASE I PRAY THAT YOUR PROMOS END SOON (:


things that i want to do:
STAYOVER AT SS515 HOUSE
KEEP RUNNING
FLY KITES
LEARN HOW TO CYCLE
the list goes on...

Wtf im sick of this. I swear if she goes on, I'm not gonna give her face already. I'm just gonna walk off.

PROMOS ARE OVER!

Something great to celebrate about (: Hit town with Dan ytd even though the last paper wasn't over then, but who cares? I'm prepared anyway. Oh well, charine wasnt free to watch with me Fame so i had to almost watch it alone because Dan wanted to mug at Gloria Jeans :( And just nice, Denise gave me a call asking me out for a movie date! Coolios, but for the first 15 mins of the show, i was alone because she was late, but at least she made the effort to run and thats the whole point of it (: And BTW, Fame sucks. Should have expected it. How can a show that That Person wants to watch it so much be good? totally waste of my money.

Went shopping at town the entire afternoon, i will try to cut down shopping with Dan because he can just empty my wallets and suck my bank acct dry. We were hanging out at Agnes B and i saw this piece of cloth there and he thought it ws a shirt -.- How can a piece of fabric, with just prints and no sewings done be a shirt? Sari maybe still possible but definitely not a shirt and Agnes B doesnt sell Sari-s im sure :D So the smart me knew it was a scarf and I was right (: So he insisted i buy that for him but 50-50 each so i agreed, but he will only get it next friday (: If you are smart enough, you would also choose to buy agnes B because otherwise i would have to choose between Burberry or Paul Smith, which he would have to wait till i have a stable income and when i'm not living off my parents (:

So, to sum up the stuffs bought for ytd, he bought a shirt from Fred Perry, a bowtie from Lanvin, and caramel popcorn for me from Cornnery[it's great man] :D Oh charine! I found a shop for you! It's in cineleisure, the corner shop just beside Fred Perry (:

Went home with Dian xiang today so i asked him abt him asking Dan to go to his house to check out his door xD Trust me i had as many qn marks as you guys have rIght now while reading (: so after clearing my doubts, his main aim is to ask Dan to create and design for him the "door" (: too lazy to describe though. BUT, i hope dian xiang will tell --- how much he likes her (: hehe both of them are so cute but they are always squabbling (:

Met Stupid Steph.Y today after her early leave and her school had to call me because apparently, my rank of being her BFF got promoted to a Mother xD So, i lied for the sake of her. God please forgive me, if you really wanna punish, punish her instead (: Headed to KFC for brunch and the retarded me, as usual, came up with another stupid idea xD She couldnt finish the fries and there was still some chilli left, i suggested to put "Lipstick" :D Because we were too playful, we were smeared too much onto our lips and it was BURNING. The pic would most probably be on her blog soon (: Looks like as though we were only putting lip gloss, but trust me, the pain was unbearable. Now i know what they meant by Beauty Comes With A Great Price To Pay... Ran back to school because i was waiting for her bus and i was almost LATE for consultation but i wasnt because i ran and i have long legs :D

Time to start work for my PW and Dan's present (: I pray that the Innovians will get their promos over and done with quickly, so that i will have somebody to text and i can disturb Stupid Steph :D

What i learnt recently is that you cant depend on anybody in this world today,
other than yourself.
So the only way you can only depend on yourself is to stay strong,
physically or mentally, whatever im talking about an all-rounder here.
even if you are sick,
dont depend on others to get you medicine,
get out of bed and get it yourself ,
because you dont happen to have a person there for you always just to get you your medicine.
yea if you have a family who gets for you,
then you are a lucky chap. My brothers,
lets just treat them as non existent 2 things who are wasting the resources of this earth.
Dad is busy, and mom is just busy keeping things clean at home,
whatever let her be.
My independence today, i really owe it to my family.

Sad to say, my independence always turns people away for trying to help me.
They either get rejected or scolded by me for even wanting to love me more.
I mean, they are not doing anything wrong or trying to hurt me,
but sorry i just hope you guys wont help me too much before i start to depend on you people for certain things.
Im not used to people being too nice to me thats all,
because i dont deserve it.
There are many more people out there who needs it more than i do.
Don't pity me and try to shower me with more love just because i have a rather sad life.
Gabriel said before, "Pictures never do people justice. Photos are a 2 dimensional account of events, it should only show surface things."
Now i get it.
It doesnt mean that i have alot of photos on fb means i am happy,
i have more no. of friends in my acct than another means im more popular.
well if your mind thinks that way,
well fuck you that goes to show that you are not putting your brain to good use.
Do you really think that all 397 of them are your friends?
To put it nicely, yes. but to put it in a crude manner,
maybe only 6 are your so called friends and the rest are just acquaintances.
Go think again and do yourself some justice.

This is not some emo post.

It's never enough to say I'm sorry,
It's never enough to say I care,
But I'm caught between what you wanted from me,
And knowing if i give that to you,
I might just disappear.
Nobody wins when everyone's losing

O' it's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what i do, you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
O' it's like trying to turn around on a one-way street
I can't give you what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see,
Maybe we're not meant to be

It's never enough to say I love you
No, it's never enough to say I tried
It's had to believe that there's no way out for you and me
And it seems to be the story of our life.
Nobody wins when everyone's losing

O' it's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what i do, you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
O' it's like trying to turn around on a one-way street
I can't give you what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see,
Maybe we're not meant to be

There's still time to turn this around,
Should we be building this up,
Instead of tearing it down
But i keep thinking maybe its too late.

It's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what i do, you're always mad
And I, I can't change your mind
O' it's like trying to turn around on a one-way street
I can't give you what you want and it's killing me
And I, I'm starting to see,
Maybe we're not meant to be

it's like one step forward and two steps back
No matter what i do, you're always mad
And I, Baby I'm sorry to see
Maybe we're not meant to be