i was feeling super sad today during physics... even chin and yeeshan noticed... because of... i wanted to cry when i read wad chin wrote to me... but i had to control myself or it would be damm embarrassing if i cried in front of chin and my classmaes...finally physics class ended... and valery's brownies seriously did help to cheer me up a little (: my mood was about that time during the company camp... i could cry anytime but i don't want to cos no one was there to lend me a shoulder to cry on...

my heart melts when u teh me just like today during chinese (:
i love it when we go to the toilet together during chinese...
even wang lao shi also notice that we love to go toilet together...
but i am damm jealous everytime some stupid junior comes and talk to you while we are at the toilet enjoying our time...
i would leave the toilet straight away but u would always come running after me (:
thats the only thing that i like (:

u took fotos wif ur junior today at the toilet while i was drying ur blouse for you...
i was damm pissed... u and ur wadever so called 'fated'...
but i cant possibly do anything right? u cant expect me to say 'i am jealous, i dont want you to take a picture with her...'
arghhh so i left the toilet without saying anything and u came running after me again... making me forgive u again (:

after that, we went back to chinese class to get ur PE shirt and went to the third floor toilet to change... u gave me ur keys and i was seriously damm happy playing with the keys :D even u noticed that (: hahas after that, u wanted to take them back so i was damm sad after that... u talked to me i didnt answer ur qn. insead, i said" i want the keys ): " and u gave them back to me xD i was damm happy again and she said that it was my turn to teh her back (:

hahas she said that i wanted the keys because that was the ' keys to her heart '(:
of course i really wanted that if there was such a thing xD but who cares? i treated it as though it was :D i wanted to return the keys to you but u dun want to take it (: u asked me to keep it for you (: u went to change and asked me to go join u (: NUTS i then dun want to go in and see lah!! hahas i seriously love her lots xD i was super duper sad when the bell for chinese to end rang... ); she wanted me to keep the keys but i didnt want to... i didnt noe why...so i just left the class without saying anything... hais...

after sch, u came to look for me asking me to go with u com lab to do something. i was damm happy but i had to give the worksheets to stephanie cos she didnt come to school today...so i asked her to join me to go then later we come back together and do that whatever thing that she needed to do... but i thought,'why should i waste her time with me??' so i said forget it... and left but i said that i would come back... she said something which i couldnt hear...

when i rushed back to school, i saw chin and ler sitting in font of the podium... just the two of them... i wondered what if icould sit like that with u??? i noe we sat even closer than them before in the toilet while we were sleeping... but what if we could sit together like that again? i think my heart will just burst into smiles and i smiled while looking at chin and ler (:

when i finally found her in front of the staffroom, i was super happy but she asked me why i came back? WHY I CAME BACK?! I CAME BACK BECAUSE OF YOU! then u told me u were joking with me that u wanted me to go back to the school and look for you... u broke my heart... so i left without saying goodbye... );

why i can feel happy yet sad at the same time when i am with u??
u make me feel confused...
all my mixed emotions...
it can all appear even if it is just having 35 mins of time with u...
i want more time together...
i just realised that we are spending more and more time together...
but it is not enough for me... i want more...
u can make my day happy like a magician (:
yet u can make my day sad just like a terrorist, invading my heart without u knowing...